I fucking miss you so much. And I can’t even tell you. And if I do, everyone will be mad at me. I can’t take it anymore. Not having you in my life as even just a friend is ridiculous. I can’t do it. I need you.
Fuck
I seriously can’t take this. I wish I knew how you felt. I’m breaking down now because of you. I want you. I miss you. I love you. Yeah I love my freedom, but my freedom doesn’t make me feel the way you did. I still wana marry you. I still wana be your world. I still don’t wana see you with anyone but me. I can’t stand not knowing of ill ever even talk to you again. Yeah I wana be single but I also want my baby back. It’s so hard to try and stop loving you. I know you won’t see this, but I wish you could. I just miss you. And I can’t stop thinking about you:’(
I don’t think the feeling will ever fade..
Beacuse I’ve loved you since 2008, and the feelings are still as strong as the second i met you, and i havent even had a conversation with you in over 2 years. Which makes me seem ridiculously pathetic… But i dont even care. And nobodies probably even reading this.. especially not him. I just wish someone understood.. I hope you feel the same way but I know you most likely don’t.. I just can’t take not knowing you anymore. I want you in my life again. Even if it’s one conversation.. I just want it. I miss everything. The STUPIDEST little things even. I rememer the shortest moments, the slightest looks, the dumb things you said to me on a daily basis, every one of our dreams, everything you’ve called me and all of my firsts with you. I miss you. I just wish I could say this all to you……… :’(
I don’t know how much more I can handle. All I’m saying is it better fucking work this time cause if he does the same thing after EVERYTHING he said to me monday I will fucking KILL him.
